My first days in my new apartment have been, well, exciting. I was looking forward to this for many years and although I was a bit overwhelmed by the prospect of being on my own and all the responsibility I am taking on, it's rather enjoyable. Tonight I have been reading through a new book that I picked up call Style Statement. Love it! It came to me as a fabulous recommendation from a friend. It's a multi-faceted approach to defining (though that may be too strict a word) that real you through reflection.
As I have been reading through the book so far, I couldn't help by harken back to this past weekend that I was able to spend with my mom. Not only did she come all this way just to help me move, she helped me clean and decorate. I often feel that in stressful times like that I would lost without her elegance. In the process of physically moving me, she also helped to move me to a new place in the looser sense of the word.
Our weekend was filled with conversations about our passions and hopes for the coming years. As I spoke about my ever-changing future plans she said something so honest that I am continuously struck by it. "I think part of the reason why I have not gone back to work or to school even, is because I really don't know what it is I want. That has led me to be too afraid to make a choice. I think you're brave for living on your own and doing what you do."
In my lifetime, I've heard so few people over the age of 30 admit that they are lacking direction, let alone admire the way that I live my life. I think that for the most part those who do lack direction manage to hide it in the tedious day-to-day lives that they lead. Structure supersedes any semblance of life. But my family is very different. My parents have been stay-at-home parents since I was in grade five. My dad has gone back to school many times and has pursued whatever his interests have evolved to. This model has led me to embrace pursuing what it is that I want, and not what I think I want. This all perfectly coincides with Style Statement. Beautiful words and photos to inspire, but above all to lead you to you.