Saturday, October 31, 2009

A review of my October To Dos

It's the end of the month, and this is what I have accomplished.

[x] 1. A very good draft of my law school personal statement - I think I finally managed to find a voice that is my own. And for that I am extremely proud of myself.

[x] 2. Got the perfect pencil skirt, and have gotten so much use out of it.

[x] 3. Veggies and fruit -well I'm still working this . . . but it is improving!

[x] 4. Re-establishing my work out routine - who knew swimming could be so great?

[x] 5. Making new friends at work (and doing well)

6. Cooking at home more - well, will be top of my November list

7. Get my pneumonia shot - this would have happened except that the Canadian Health Care system has denied me : (

8. See Coco Avant Chanel - next month! And I will see the The September Issue

Thursday, October 29, 2009

Projects to pursue

I know what you're thinking, headbands have come and gone in terms of trends. But I think there would be something satisfying about telling everyone that you did it yourself.

This one appears a bit more complicated, but possibly a good challenge. I mostly just like the intricacy of it. But I might like it more if it was made with pretty beads instead of wood ones.

Adorable necklaces, which I am a huge fan of. In fact I saw some like this at a bead store in Kits recently, they wanted like $135 for it! Crazy, I know. Of course I was seriously considering getting it.

Very cute ribbon belts, and super easy to make. You can find them here.

I realize that my addiction to Martha Stewart crafts is extremely tragic. I actually said to my roommate earlier today that I wish I could do arts and crafts all day. Life would be simpler and more relaxing. If only I had more time . . .

Tuesday, October 27, 2009

Good things so far this year

This school year has brought a lot of changes in my life, and I'm not just talking about a new relationship. It's been challenging. Suddenly my life has become about something more than just school in the present. My attention is split in about 8 directions, which is frustrating at times. But then I think about some of the great memories and opportunities I've had so far this year - and it all seems worth it. For example, working off-campus has been a great experience for me. I've met some great new people and, in a way, I think it's brought me out of my shell. I'm not saying that I still don't have moments of shyness, but I'm getting better about being friendly most of the time. I think it's an important quality that I should have acquired a long time ago.

My new relationship has also been teaching me a lot. I think I've figured out the necessity of trust, and with that comes the ability to communicate. I know, I've written about this before, but I think that speaks to the weight I place on it. It's difficult to explain, but I think that I might finally be in a good place with someone else, to the point that I'm able to be comfortable in my own skin around him. It's a refreshing feeling.

What else has been going on? Well, I think I have also found my niche within law - feminist legal studies. In fact I've become so interested in it that I'm writing a term paper on it. I don't think I've every been so enthusiastic about writing a paper. I'm sure I'll be discussing it again soon.

Monday, October 26, 2009

Restaurants to try

Every year in late January I look forward to Dine Out Vancouver. The expensive restaurants of the city open their doors to everyone by offering affordable tasting menus. It's also a great way to find new, inexpensive places to go for the rest of the year. (Sadly enough) Karoline and I have become the go-to people for restaurant recommendations. I do my fair share of walking and bus riding around the city and always see restaurants that I want to go to. Here are a few on my list.
Topanga Cafe (near 4th and Bayswater): Vancouver lacks fabulous Mexican food, which is something I sorely miss about California. You can always find good Mexican food no matter where you are in the state. Now, having been to a truly bad Mexican restaurant in Vancouver about 3 years ago, I'm always skeptical that I will ever find good one. The reviews I've read online have been good so far, but I'm not sure Canadians know what good Mexican food is.

Les Faux
Bourgeois Café (15th and Fraser): This is in the most random part of town, and how Karoline and I stumbled upon it is even more random. As we looked at the menu, I think we both wished we had been going there for dinner. Very adorable, cozy French bistro that I must go back to. Reasonably priced

La Quercia (4th and Alma): I've always felt that it is fairly difficult to screw up Italian food, but it is even more difficult to make it exceptional. Vancouver has it's fair share of good Italian restaurants, and compared to their monstrous dinning rooms, this is very quaint. They menu is constructed in an interesting way. Either the 5 course $40 menu or the 9 course $59 menu (expensive but possibly worth it). The reviews it has online are stellar, which makes me even more inclined to dine there soon.

Pair Bistro (10th and Alma): I go by this place all the time, so finally I looked it up They have crab cakes and chowder. Enough said.

Coast (Alberni and Burrard): This one came via recommendation from a co-worker. Any restaurant that proports delicious seafood is one that catches my attention. Better yet, it is owned by the group who runs The Italian Kitchen and the up-coming Society Lounge in Yaletown.

Saturday, October 24, 2009

Some shoes I love

Who knew Lacoste made heels? Definitely getting these (Chatsworth) at some point.

I have a weakness for shoes with cute flowers. Betsey Johnson, Kalen

And if I could afford them, Mamanouk by Christian Louboutin

Wink pumps by Calvin Klein

Danielle from Via Siga (might buy)

Cool days and rich colours

I am particularly fond of this photo. It's taken on the downtown east side. The colors rich, which reminds me of the fall in Vancouver. That's one of the things that I love about living here - the seasons. We don't really have a fall or a spring at home, but here all four seasons are alive. Unfortunately, the rain is back with a vengeance and chilly temperatures are ensuing. The only good thing about this time of year is the clothes. I love fall/winter clothing. That is my bright spot in these shorter days.

Thursday, October 22, 2009

A problem

Inevitably happiness can't be sustained forever. I believe that we were in a constant state of happiness, we wouldn't appreciate the good times that we do have. I think that every time we face difficult situations, we come out stronger and always learn something about ourselves. I'm currently facing some strange problems with the boy. We've been dating for about a month now and today we had a very long, and rather intense conversation about our relationship. It seems like there is a ticking clock on our time together, though I'm coming to believe that it's more important that we just enjoy the present. Anyways he said something that was particularly perplexing. Having known him for 3 years now and seen him in relationships, I know that he hasn't been one for a commitment. Anyways, he said something to the extent that he was feeling in a running mood. (ie running away from commitment). I'm sure any girl can understand the moment of panic that came over. Oh my god, he's going to break up with me - holy moley.

I can't deny that I went through a brief period of uncertainty about our relationship. It was and is a big step for us. I'm finding myself in a place where I need to make a persuasive argument, to give him a reason not to be afraid. It would, of course, be useful if I knew why he's suddenly feeling like running. I'm not sure what to say, or do, other than to fight for myself and for us. I like him a lot - and I could say that in a thousand ways, but how do I say it so that he understands it? So that it means something?

Tuesday, October 20, 2009

A better day

Yesterday was one of those days that I just want to forget. It was long day of work and class, and by the time I got home around 10 pm I felt emotionally and physically drained. I feel that so often my way of dealing with complicated, big things in my life is to internalize them. I've never been one to like to burden others with what I'm dealing with. Despite my efforts to bottle things up, they only seem to come shining through. The boy knew something was wrong, and although I trust him, I couldn't seem to bring myself to confide in him. And after he left me at home, I felt even worse. Karoline and I had a good chat and was able to finally let go of everything I was holding on too. It involved a few tears, but I knew those were overdue from the weekend.

I felt really awful about not talking to the boy. I knew that I would regret it, but at the time I thought it was the right thing to do. So today, I decide to let it go and be honest. I feel surprisingly better today. (Shocking, I know.) Perhaps this was a good thing for me, realizing that I can be open and communicate, and feel safe about it.

Luckily today has been much better. I got lots of work done and then went for a swim this afternoon. I have recollected my scattered mind. And now, I'm settling in for the evening.

Saturday, October 17, 2009

What's the problem with being a prude?

According to me, nothing. I happen to embrace my demeanor, even if it does make me act about ten years older than I really am. It's who I am, and I see nothing wrong with it. I was raised in a fairly conservative family, and even though they are very open about sex, and yet I some how seemed to missed out on their openness and sense of humor. And suddenly I am finding that my prudishness is holding me back from living my life. I need to figure out how to put a damper on it.

I'm sure my boyfriend would say that it's a product of my North American environment. Perhaps. Thinking about the boys I've dated from this continent, they haven't necessarily been prim and proper, but they weren't ones to openly discuss sex. Given that my communication skills are generally lacking, I am suddenly encountering a complete ineptitude of being comfortable. I think that I can point to a couple things that have caused this problem.

1) General insecurities. I'm still working on my confidence, though I'm skeptical that I will ever be total comfortable in my own skin. I think this translates of over to being nervous when I'm intimate with someone.
2) Past experiences. My sexual past is pretty limited, and I'd venture to say that none of them have been great yet, though I'm optimistic they will get better. That's besides the point though. What I mean to be getting at is that in the past, the boys I've been with have been fairly self-absorbed about the experience.
3) My general belief that sex should be, on some level, meaningful - and for whatever reason that translates for me into something 'serious.' If I know how to shake this complex from my mind, believe me I would.
4) Trust. People claim to have trust issues, but they would be hard pressed to rival mine. It takes me forever to make up my mind about whether or not I can trust someone. And also, I feel very strongly about trust being a staple in any relationship. So as you can see, it has an amplified affect on me.

Monday, October 12, 2009


I love hand written letters. It is a lost art that seriously wish someone besides me would revive. Reasons why I like them include:
1) Seeing someone's handwriting really brings across a human element that type face lacks
2) Stationary is pretty
3) It's always nice to find something other than a bank statement in your mail box
4) You don't have to delete them when your inbox is full
5) Whenever you pull them out of an envelop, you can always rekindle the feeling that you had the first time you read it - and it's just as special.

Sunday, October 11, 2009

Things to do on a sick day

Don't go to work.

Sleep in.

Have soup and toast.

Drink tea.

Call the parents.

Write a few emails.

Watch a movie
{photo here}

Saturday, October 10, 2009

Just a thought

What would you do, if you knew for sure, you would not fail?

Friday, October 09, 2009

Baking adventures

It's the end of another week and I've revived my post-it note to do lists. But I'm very much looking forward to this weekend despite the workload I have. Tomorrow night Karoline and I are hosting a dinner before we go out for my boyfriend's birthday. I'm sure it will be nothing less than memorable. Tonight I started making dessert for our post-dinner celebration. Karoline did a taste test and said they were great, which is good to hear. I made brownies with a cream cheese oreo frosting. They were super easy to make and I'm hoping they go over well.

The brownies
1 package of brownie mix
2 eggs
1/2 a cup of butter
And 4 crushed oreos for the top

Bake at 325 degrees for 40 minutes

The frosting
1 cup of confectioners sugar
1/4 a cup of butter
8 crushed oreos
4 oz of cream cheese

Have a happy weekend and enjoy!

Tuesday, October 06, 2009

Seeds of creativity

I'm taking a textile design class at the moment, which is inspiring many projects. If only I had more time to work on them. Here are some of the ones that I'm toying with.

Felt jackets. Love the colors on this one. And if I knew someone with a small child I would make this.

I also like felt flowers, now I just need to figure out how to make one. This brooch is one of my favs. This one is pretty too. This tutorial looks promising.

I like the concept of creating a floral collage on a jacket . . . I'm starting think about my final project of the is class but I have so many ideas I can't even decide on one yet.

Sunday, October 04, 2009

New objects of desire

I have a lot to say but I haven't figured out how to rein it in. Things I'm currently musing over:

Some hybrid of french country and glamorous. This may seem contradictory. I imagine it to be a palate that is fairly simple and understated as french country usually is, but with touches of eloquent, rich details. Perhaps like this

Tall boots. Like these and those. Ankle boots too.

Roses. Especially the ones on my desk.

One can never have too many flats.

Black and white photographs. I suppose this is always at the back of my mind.

Making a cake plate at the pottery studio. Hopefully like the one on the right.

Grey as my new black. It goes with everything and it looks better on me.

Saturday, October 03, 2009

A to do list for this month

A few things I plan to do this month

Buy the perfect pencil skirt - I thought I found one, but it turned out it had a top attached to it! So disappointing. The search continues . . .

See the Chanel Movie, Coco Avant Chanel - she's fabulous and it's about time she had a movie about her.

Get my pneumonia shot - because I really can't afford to get sick.

Get my five servings of fruit and vegetables, with an emphasis on the veggies

Write my personal statement for law school - a difficult task that I've been trying to complete since August, but this is month that it's going to get finished.

Cook dinner more often - due to my insanely busy schedule in September I haven't been cooking as much as I'd like, but now I am going to change that.