Tuesday, February 26, 2008
In the past year and a half since I've moved to Canada, I've lost about 60 lbs. I'm struggling at this moment to maintain all my hard work. It's hard not to sabotage it but I know that in the long run I'll be grateful to myself for showing a bit of self control with food. I think for me, my weight loss has been about avoiding all the health problems that people in my family have had in relation to being obese. After I lost a lot of weight last year, my dad decided to as well. I was really proud of him for doing as well as he did, however he hasn't been able to maintain it at all. I want to prove that I'm not like that. That I am stronger than that. I know what needs to be done and now all I have to do is do it.
Posted by Vanessa at 4:58 PM
Saturday, February 23, 2008
It's been an interesting past few months. I'd like to say that I've gained perspective on everything, but it's too soon to say. I alone now for the first time in a while, and although I'm feeling a bit weak on my feet I think this will only make me stronger. I am a bit angry and there's no telling how long it's going to take me to get over this. I guess it's true that you never know how much you love someone until they are no longer there. I know that I loved him just as much now as when we were together; but that was the difference between us. I always knew how I felt and where I was going. Maybe it's true what they say, if you don't know where you're going you'll end up somewhere else. I think I might have been too jaded to even acknowledge that I hadn't a clue what it was that I really wanted.
Posted by Vanessa at 7:30 PM