Thursday, July 26, 2007

thinking ahead to the upcoming school year

I've finally managed to sort out my classes to perfection. I realized earlier today that one of my English professors was one of my TAs last year. Hahaha. I remember the one lecture he gave and quickly managed to switch sections. Thank god. Taking the distance courses this summer has made me realize a lot about what kind of learning I'm best suited to and I think it's given me some insights as to how to be more successful next year. I really think I have it in me to do so much better next year. I'd feel even more comfortable about it if I knew exactly what I was working towards. Sure, in the short run it's the best marks possible of course. But I've become more and more disillusioned about what exactly I'm at university for. To be honest I really I have no idea what I want to do with my life. And I feel really undirected because it seems like everyone else around me is on very rigorous and directed paths. Some times I think I wouldn't mind sticking with English and going into Law. But the more artsy side of me craves something with more depth than that. I know I could be great at something like graphic design or fashion design. But it's hard to say what exactly I want anymore. I'm hoping that this first term with help me to gain a more clear perspective on this matter.

Saturday, July 21, 2007

the summer so far

So my intentions of being an avid blogger have always been good. But my attempts, not so much. It's mid-summer. So far it's been an interesting one. I've enjoyed the productivity and leisure of the summer courses I've been taking. And I've also had a lot of time to catch up on activities that I don't have the time fore during the school year. Various art projects, horseback riding, more volunteer work. I've even attempted to get a job, though that failed miserably. But the important part is that I tried. My volunteer work has by far been the most rewarding thing I've done with my time. I help out at Project R.I.D.E. a riding stable that offers therapeutic riding lessons to disabled children. What I love most about it, is that I get to be a part of these kids' lives, in an activity where they get to feel like they are great at something. They're all such wonderful kids and it's such a shame that they live in a world where they contribute so much, yet receive so little in return. It's made me rethink a lot of things in my own life. Like how many opportunities I've had that I've taken for granted. It's made me a lot more grateful for what I have right now. In this moment. It's made me want to work hard, to be better, and to do more. Because I am able.