Friday, November 24, 2006

what to do, what to do.

Someone said to me the other day, "I'm so glad you're back to being normal." I knew what they were talking about. But I couldn't help but want to still feel weak. And Fragile. And pale. I was downtown to day and a man made eye contact with me, and for the first time ever, I immediately dropped my eyes to the pavement. I never do this. I don't submit like that. And now I feel so broken because I can't even make eye contact with out feeling wrong. I don't know what move to make next or where to turn or how to move. I feel paralyzed in a night that wasn't meant to last. It wasn't meantto manifest itself. Turning me inside out. Not like this.  

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