Friday, September 29, 2006

in between

you know that awkward feeling you get when you in between adapting to a new environment and rejecting it? Like a numbness, when everything thing starts to feel familar, but you aren't ready for it to be your new norm? I feel in limbo right now, somewhere in the middle between. Everything about UBC is feeling all to familar, but I want it to stay strange and untrue, because if it isn't I'd have to own up to the fact that I'm comfortable in a new environment. I don't want to call this place my home. It's not. It isn't California. My horses aren't visible from my bedroom window. The people don't know me like they do at home. Yet i want so badly for all of this to be true.

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